I HAD PLANNED MY SUICIDE FOR AFTER MID-NIGHT

My name is Alexis, raised in a little village of Kivalina, Alaska, a small town just above the Arctic circle but now reside in Anchorage, AK for the past three years. I am a single mother of four children, and enjoying life one day at a time.

I first met Dr. Maria in 2016 when she went to Kivalina and have been in touch with her ever since. Since I met her ministry – my life, my mindset and my outlook on life had changed tremendously for the better. I am one of those people who have battled with addiction to alcoholism, marijuana and cigarettes which lead to depression and suicidal thoughts.

On March 20, 2016- I had planned out my suicide to be done after midnight. I planned on committing suicide because I was so tired, tired of being an alcoholic, tired of feeling stuck. I was severely heart broken and depressed after leaving my relationship of five years and it felt like life would never get better. I spent the day at my mom’s house and on my way to my sister’s house to hang myself, on the storm shed there was a flyer hanging on the door knob that asked “DO YOU NEED HEALING FROM DEPRESSION, ADDICTION AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS?” My mind was blown because it was everything I needed healing from.

There was an invitation to come to church the next day and that little flyer saved my life. I held on to see what the service was about and again my mind was blown because it was everything I needed to hear. When the service was over, Dr. Maria called up people for prayer and as she laid hands on me I could feel the spirit of suicide/addiction/depression flow out from the bottom of my stomach to the top and it left out my head! I have never been the same since because I know the mighty working power of Jesus now lives in me.

Since then, I have NEVER considered committing suicide and I know that depression and addiction have no power over my life because He that lives in me is greater than He that lives in the world.

~Alexis, Kivalina, AK